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And you just stand there, filming with
that damn camera.

2
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Do you think that camera is you?

3
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Don't Cut Me Into Your Film

4
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Let's run the lines.

5
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I must see you.

6
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Fuck off. Stop tormenting me.

7
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I love you.

8
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That was terrible acting.

9
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You have to really love him,

10
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Not for real. You're acting. You're
pretending.

11
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It's the same.

12
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They're both broken, trying to reconnect.
But the pieces won't fit.

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They only cut each other.

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Understand?

15
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Hmm.

16
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Yes, you can imagine your skin, your soul
is made of fragments, and very sharp.

17
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Put us together shaking, shaking, shaking,

18
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Put us in a big plastic bag and shake it.

19
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Hmm.

20
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We only break into smaller pieces.

21
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There's no way for either of us to save
the other.

22
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Why don't they just split up?

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Just split up.

24
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Isn't this art?

25
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[laughter]

26
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All that explaining for nothing.

27
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this is not love, understand?

28
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This is not love, this is, I don't know
what to call it, but...

29
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It's worse than the love I imagine. A
hundred times worse.

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Do you understand?

31
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I mean...

32
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I understand.

33
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you're not listening to me at all. Not at
all.

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How many times do I have to tell you?

35
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After so many rehearsals, You still can't
get this simple bit right?

36
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I mean...

37
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you don't have that feeling.

38
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You always say okay, "I know. I
understand."

39
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But you don't believe me.

40
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You just don't get it.

41
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You have to look into his eyes, and tell
him...

42
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I've lost patience with this play.

43
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How long will this drag on?

44
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"Desperate joy." "Resolve in collapse."

45
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What words?

46
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How the fuck do I act that?

47
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I'm thinking... Where do we begin, and
where do we end?

48
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Think about it.

49
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Let me think.

50
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At the beginning...

51
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Or in your script, how does it begin and
end?

52
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You're destroying me.

53
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It begins with destruction. When I realize
you're destroying me.

54
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And it ends when I'm destroyed. Then you
sleep peacefully.

55
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You're cold. So cold. until you freeze to
death.

56
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It's bleak. A bleak beginning and ending.

57
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And... We can just act naturally. It
doesn't have to feel like theatre.

58
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I understand, I know, It's not theatre.

59
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Well, in everyday life... but daily life
also has emotions, and violence.

60
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Ah. Yes.

61
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When you see someone you like, you want to
smile. Yes.

62
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Not that often.

63
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I don't feel like you're destroying me.

64
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A habit. A habit of what? Hurting others.

65
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Hmm.

66
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Because that, I wrote it when I was in a
bad mood. I'm in a good mood now.

67
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Maybe we don't have to hurt each other.
Just play a tender, helpless love.

68
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I'm getting into it.

69
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Okay. Give me a moment.

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Can you see me without your glasses?

71
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Can you see me like this?

72
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I can see you. And everything around you
has a soft halo.

73
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Am I blurry then? You're not blurry.

74
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Everything around you gets blurry.

75
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Is there light around me? Yes. Is there?

76
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Look again, is there light?

77
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Maybe. There's light in your eyes.

78
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What about around me? Beside me...

79
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The light is in your eyes.

80
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But you're not looking into my eyes.

81
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Are you looking?

82
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My eyes are here.

83
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Am I hallucinating?

84
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Hahaha.

85
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Are you hallucinating?

86
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There's this person. His name is He Fa.

87
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He kept saying he wanted everyone to
understand each other.

88
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He said honest communication mattered
most.

89
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But when I said I wanted to talk honestly
with him, he refused. Hmm.

90
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I thought he was such a hypocrite. Why did
he refuse?

91
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How did he refuse?

92
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What actually happened?

93
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I think he might be a little afraid of me.

94
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He's afraid. Yes. Like right now. He might
be a little afraid of me.

95
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Maybe I can make him angry too easily.

96
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Afraid. Yes, afraid.

97
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I don't want anything to come between us.

98
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That's bullshit.

99
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Don't you hear how ridiculous that sounds?

100
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Huh?

101
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Why?

102
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What do you mean, "come between us"?

103
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It already has.

104
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Didn't you say it was fine?

105
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What did I say?

106
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You think he'll come between us?

107
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Before... Hmm. Maybe I didn't think it
through before.

108
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But lately I've realized... He really has
affected us.

109
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You came to see me last night.

110
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Hmm.

111
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I knew he'd changed something.

112
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I thought this would make you happy.

113
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When we first started... Wasn't it
because... It did make me happy at first.

114
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But now... What's changed?

115
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Maybe we were too optimistic at first. I
think so.

116
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You think I should cut him off?

117
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I don't know. I just...

118
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Hmm.

119
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What are you going to do about him?

120
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I get jealous too, sometimes.

121
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But I think I have to work through it.

122
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Are you afraid we'll break up?

123
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Probably. That's probably it.

124
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But I don't think we're that fragile.

125
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I mean... Our relationship shouldn't be
that fragile. No.

126
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What do you think?

127
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What do you think?

128
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You... Don't you think a lot of things
have changed?

129
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You think the bad parts are things to
overcome.

130
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I can't do that anymore.

131
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I can't get past it.

132
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How... I don't know how to get past it.

133
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I don't know why I have to work through
all this.

134
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It's strange. Why?

135
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Why let it get like this? It's a mess.

136
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Do you want to end it?

137
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So you're enjoying all this?

138
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Do you enjoy it?

139
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Why keep asking whether I accept it?

140
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I'm not unhappy.

141
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You're happy? You're enjoying it? There's
more happiness than pain.

142
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It's okay, I can listen to you, if you
want.

143
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Why is it always me who has to talk?

144
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Why am I always the one talking?

145
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Can't you say something?

146
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You just stare at me, like this, and say
nothing. Not a damn word. Right?

147
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See? You're silent again.

148
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Maybe we should take a break, if you're
unhappy.

149
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So that's what you wanted to tell me? just
take a break.

150
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You thought about it all night, and this
is what you tell me?

151
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I don't know how to fix it. Maybe we can
stop.

152
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If this is hurting you, we can stop.

153
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I thought we'd find a way together to get
through this.

154
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But you're saying we should stop.

155
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And you just stand there, filming with
that damn camera.

156
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Do you think that camera is you?

157
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Huh?

158
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You like watching me through it, right?

159
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Will you watch it at home and work out how
to answer me?

160
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I don't know what to do.

161
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I never thought we'd end up here.

162
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A way... What I'm trying to say is, we can
pause and think it through.

163
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But you need an answer from me right now.

164
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I don't have one.

165
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I don't know what's hurting you.

166
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Everything hurts.

167
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I feel like I'm suffocating.

168
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Do you really understand?

169
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I didn't get involved before because I
thought, "Not my fucking business."

170
00:08:02,960 --> 00:08:05,760
But I know it's a mess. You think it's a
mess?

171
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It is a mess. I admit it.

172
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For me, in all this chaos, my main
responsibility is to record it.

173
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That's what I'm doing. But if I...

174
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if I intervene, and become the person
responsible for keeping it safe,

175
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I'd make all this chaos clear.

176
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Turn it into something orderly and tightly
structured.

177
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And that would take it somewhere else.

178
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That place... that's where successful
people go.

179
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But I belong to the human surrender
faction.

180
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I don't want to do those things.

181
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I feel responsible for humanity. So I have
to surrender,

182
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I have to fail to the very end.

183
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Stay in this chaos to the very end.

184
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Of course, until we finish filming this
piece.

185
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Then... it really will be the end.

186
00:09:01,900 --> 00:09:05,220
This is my last breath. Last breath,

187
00:09:05,540 --> 00:09:08,900
Choose your words carefully. Is 'last
breath' really what you mean?

188
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I mean I'll see this through to the end.

189
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Hmm.

190
00:09:12,767 --> 00:09:16,097
I often wonder... why can't I love you?

191
00:09:16,100 --> 00:09:18,830
No... no one taught us how to love.

192
00:09:18,867 --> 00:09:22,217
Can it be taught?

193
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Okay. You film. Okay.

194
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Let me set it up. It's already recording.
Just hold it.

195
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I'm a camera. I'm a camera.

196
00:09:32,113 --> 00:09:34,720
Mm-hmm. Are you scared? Afraid of being
filmed?

197
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Of course not. Come closer.

198
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I'm a camera. Mm-hmm. Hello. I'm a camera.

199
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You're scared. You're resisting a camera.
How strange.

200
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This time, who gets to call cut?