1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,140 Uh, crybaby. 2 00:00:02,800 --> 00:00:04,590 Would you get angry if I called you that? 3 00:00:04,600 --> 00:00:05,700 Uh, no. 4 00:00:06,120 --> 00:00:06,613 Why? 5 00:00:06,623 --> 00:00:07,886 Oh, I'm not one anymore. 6 00:00:07,973 --> 00:00:09,010 You're not one now? 7 00:00:09,020 --> 00:00:09,390 Yeah. 8 00:00:09,400 --> 00:00:11,033 Why does it hurt when others say it? 9 00:00:16,033 --> 00:00:18,673 What are you thinking about? 10 00:00:21,493 --> 00:00:22,704 The lines from earlier. 11 00:00:23,210 --> 00:00:24,490 Right. Mm. 12 00:00:25,170 --> 00:00:25,920 Okay. 13 00:00:28,667 --> 00:00:33,417 You know I shouldn't be the way I am now. 14 00:00:33,527 --> 00:00:37,147 You know I shouldn't be the way I am now. 15 00:00:38,967 --> 00:00:41,387 And then they'd laugh. 16 00:00:42,027 --> 00:00:43,993 I was so sad when I said it. 17 00:00:45,023 --> 00:00:47,093 I shouldn't be like this now... 18 00:00:49,833 --> 00:00:58,063 They don't understand me. 19 00:00:59,867 --> 00:01:00,937 It's not your fault. 20 00:01:02,657 --> 00:01:04,341 And then they call me a crybaby. 21 00:01:05,533 --> 00:01:06,803 Just going, "Boo-hoo." 22 00:01:07,173 --> 00:01:07,923 Mm. 23 00:01:08,300 --> 00:01:09,480 Because you cry a lot. 24 00:01:10,250 --> 00:01:11,000 Oh. 25 00:01:11,400 --> 00:01:12,240 So weird. 26 00:01:13,533 --> 00:01:15,783 Then I tell other people, and they... 27 00:01:17,933 --> 00:01:20,293 I don't know who to tell. They wouldn't listen anyway. 28 00:01:20,303 --> 00:01:24,853 They only care about having a laugh, not about anything else. 29 00:01:26,667 --> 00:01:28,897 There's nothing wrong with laughing, but... 30 00:01:28,907 --> 00:01:29,657 Mm. 31 00:01:30,933 --> 00:01:31,683 Crybaby. 32 00:01:32,463 --> 00:01:34,827 When they call you a crybaby... 33 00:01:36,067 --> 00:01:36,817 Mm. 34 00:01:36,947 --> 00:01:38,307 Does it make you sad? 35 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:46,270 Mm. 36 00:01:48,390 --> 00:01:51,560 You can tell me. 37 00:01:53,667 --> 00:01:56,067 Okay, I can listen to you now. 38 00:01:57,307 --> 00:01:58,667 Tell me. 39 00:02:01,633 --> 00:02:10,283 Are you still leaving? 40 00:02:12,100 --> 00:02:12,850 Hm? 41 00:02:14,233 --> 00:02:14,983 Hm? 42 00:02:16,267 --> 00:02:17,017 Mm. 43 00:02:17,747 --> 00:02:21,277 Good, good. All right. Heh. 44 00:02:23,100 --> 00:02:26,340 Do you feel like I'm pressuring you to stay? 45 00:02:27,860 --> 00:02:29,727 Mm. All right. 46 00:02:31,257 --> 00:02:33,307 I'm worried you might be staying 47 00:02:34,027 --> 00:02:38,187 because I'm pressuring you. 48 00:02:41,467 --> 00:02:42,217 Ha-ha. 49 00:02:42,333 --> 00:02:44,553 I know they make you sound frightening. 50 00:02:44,573 --> 00:02:46,123 I know you're really not like that. 51 00:02:46,133 --> 00:02:46,883 Mm. 52 00:02:47,800 --> 00:02:49,695 Why did you say you weren't leaving? 53 00:02:50,967 --> 00:02:51,717 It's raining. 54 00:02:52,247 --> 00:02:52,997 Mm. 55 00:02:54,200 --> 00:02:55,430 Can you hold me? 56 00:02:58,433 --> 00:02:59,960 I can, but it's a little hot. 57 00:03:00,633 --> 00:03:03,233 I could turn on the air conditioner. 58 00:03:04,967 --> 00:03:06,861 But then it's too cold. It's just... 59 00:03:06,987 --> 00:03:08,327 Can you hold me? 60 00:03:09,767 --> 00:03:10,517 I can. 61 00:03:11,317 --> 00:03:13,583 Then why are there so many reasons? 62 00:03:14,500 --> 00:03:17,100 Because you're feeling a lot of things right now. 63 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:21,130 Or what? 64 00:03:22,690 --> 00:03:23,990 Can you really... 65 00:03:26,820 --> 00:03:28,113 We can try. We can try. 66 00:03:28,353 --> 00:03:29,623 Then try. 67 00:03:32,600 --> 00:03:34,790 I want to rest my head on your hand. 68 00:03:38,360 --> 00:03:39,518 Move up a little more. 69 00:03:41,557 --> 00:03:42,557 You're laughing. 70 00:03:43,347 --> 00:03:45,357 You look like a little bug crawling. 71 00:03:45,367 --> 00:03:49,717 Ha-ha, you're killing me. 72 00:03:49,837 --> 00:03:51,897 You're like a little bug. 73 00:03:52,537 --> 00:03:55,207 Then keep crawling. 74 00:03:55,967 --> 00:03:56,690 Mm. 75 00:03:56,700 --> 00:03:58,110 Then put your hand here. 76 00:03:59,067 --> 00:03:59,817 Mm. 77 00:04:00,033 --> 00:04:00,723 Where? 78 00:04:00,733 --> 00:04:01,483 Here. 79 00:04:01,693 --> 00:04:03,483 Haven't you hugged someone before? 80 00:04:03,773 --> 00:04:04,593 Oh, okay. 81 00:04:08,233 --> 00:04:10,643 Are you laughing? You're laughing again. 82 00:04:12,700 --> 00:04:15,020 Ah... what are you laughing at? 83 00:04:15,267 --> 00:04:16,898 Laughing helps with the nerves. 84 00:04:17,057 --> 00:04:18,107 Nervous about what? 85 00:04:18,533 --> 00:04:19,090 Huh? 86 00:04:19,100 --> 00:04:21,240 Uh, crybaby. 87 00:04:21,900 --> 00:04:23,690 Would you get angry if I called you that? 88 00:04:23,700 --> 00:04:24,800 Uh, no. 89 00:04:25,220 --> 00:04:25,713 Why? 90 00:04:25,723 --> 00:04:26,986 Oh, I'm not one anymore. 91 00:04:27,073 --> 00:04:28,110 You're not one now? 92 00:04:28,120 --> 00:04:28,490 Yeah. 93 00:04:28,500 --> 00:04:30,120 Why does it hurt when others say it? 94 00:04:30,130 --> 00:04:30,857 Huh? 95 00:04:30,867 --> 00:04:31,617 Huh? 96 00:04:32,087 --> 00:04:32,980 Because... 97 00:04:33,267 --> 00:04:34,657 Because they're other people. 98 00:04:34,667 --> 00:04:35,707 And now? 99 00:04:36,300 --> 00:04:37,050 Now it's you. 100 00:04:37,060 --> 00:04:38,907 So you're not a crybaby anymore, right? 101 00:04:38,917 --> 00:04:40,237 Oh. Ha-ha. 102 00:04:41,647 --> 00:04:42,397 Ah. 103 00:04:43,300 --> 00:04:44,090 Uh, right. 104 00:04:44,680 --> 00:04:45,430 That's good. 105 00:04:46,690 --> 00:04:47,440 Ha-ha. 106 00:04:47,867 --> 00:04:48,647 What are you doing? 107 00:04:48,657 --> 00:04:49,397 What are you doing? 108 00:04:49,407 --> 00:04:51,873 I'm watching to see if you'll turn into a crybaby. 109 00:04:51,883 --> 00:04:57,410 Putting your finger on my chin won't turn me into anything weird. 110 00:04:57,590 --> 00:04:59,660 But it makes my neck a little uncomfortable. 111 00:04:59,670 --> 00:05:00,420 Okay. 112 00:05:02,067 --> 00:05:04,677 Hey, are you hot? 113 00:05:05,397 --> 00:05:06,147 A little. 114 00:05:06,887 --> 00:05:08,527 Why don't I feel hot? 115 00:05:10,533 --> 00:05:11,990 So what happened to you in the end? 116 00:05:12,000 --> 00:05:15,100 What could you do in the end? 117 00:05:16,900 --> 00:05:17,650 Hm? 118 00:05:18,833 --> 00:05:20,463 And around then, I had a dream. 119 00:05:20,473 --> 00:05:21,793 I dreamed about Jiating. 120 00:05:22,767 --> 00:05:23,517 And then? 121 00:05:25,200 --> 00:05:27,420 And I knew Jiating understood me. 122 00:05:27,630 --> 00:05:27,857 Mm. 123 00:05:27,867 --> 00:05:30,890 We were in one of those places where kids play... 124 00:05:30,900 --> 00:05:31,657 Mm. 125 00:05:31,667 --> 00:05:34,990 A sort of bubble house, a colorful house, with lots of little balls. 126 00:05:35,000 --> 00:05:35,557 Mm-hm. 127 00:05:35,567 --> 00:05:36,623 The two of us sat there. 128 00:05:36,633 --> 00:05:37,343 Mm-hm. 129 00:05:37,353 --> 00:05:40,157 Right, and then... I said... 130 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:42,530 Actually, you know... 131 00:05:42,540 --> 00:05:42,823 Mm. 132 00:05:42,833 --> 00:05:44,518 I shouldn't be the way I am now. 133 00:05:44,543 --> 00:05:45,293 Mm. 134 00:05:45,953 --> 00:05:47,111 I was asking for help. 135 00:05:48,700 --> 00:05:50,470 How did you feel? 136 00:05:52,333 --> 00:05:57,323 But no one came to help me then, and... 137 00:05:57,333 --> 00:06:00,533 No one's called me a crybaby. That's strange. 138 00:06:01,823 --> 00:06:04,192 Then you didn't go through that crying phase. 139 00:06:04,223 --> 00:06:12,493 Mm. Maybe people think they wouldn't cry, that they must be pretty strong. 140 00:06:14,753 --> 00:06:15,503 Mm. 141 00:06:16,867 --> 00:06:19,867 This feels so comfortable. It's so comfortable like this. 142 00:06:21,200 --> 00:06:22,960 Do you still feel hot? 143 00:06:24,830 --> 00:06:25,580 Mm. 144 00:06:26,643 --> 00:06:28,883 It's a little warm now. 145 00:06:29,523 --> 00:06:30,223 About right. 146 00:06:30,233 --> 00:06:31,153 Okay, then. 147 00:06:31,673 --> 00:06:32,703 It's not that... 148 00:06:33,353 --> 00:06:34,774 uncomfortable kind of heat. 149 00:06:36,200 --> 00:06:37,760 Do you ever feel afraid? 150 00:06:39,990 --> 00:06:42,570 Mm. Afraid of what? 151 00:06:42,880 --> 00:06:46,300 Mm. Death. 152 00:06:49,330 --> 00:06:51,143 Close relationships. 153 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:53,580 Friends. 154 00:06:55,330 --> 00:06:57,893 This society. 155 00:06:58,593 --> 00:07:02,190 Everything, all of it. 156 00:07:02,200 --> 00:07:05,570 Everything that's happening now. 157 00:07:09,360 --> 00:07:11,047 Do you feel afraid? 158 00:07:14,700 --> 00:07:15,450 Yes, I do. 159 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:17,750 Mm. 160 00:07:23,200 --> 00:07:24,590 As a child, my family... 161 00:07:25,360 --> 00:07:26,670 abandoned me. And... 162 00:07:29,467 --> 00:07:32,227 So in close relationships, I tend to fear... 163 00:07:32,667 --> 00:07:33,417 Mm. 164 00:07:36,397 --> 00:07:38,134 the uncertainty, the instability, 165 00:07:38,560 --> 00:07:40,244 things suddenly feeling distant. 166 00:07:41,433 --> 00:07:44,433 But when it's too... 167 00:07:45,700 --> 00:07:47,753 Once you're too close, it feels like... 168 00:07:48,420 --> 00:07:49,783 I mean... 169 00:07:50,683 --> 00:07:52,473 it's hard to have anything more... 170 00:07:52,603 --> 00:07:53,353 just... 171 00:07:54,433 --> 00:07:55,723 It's only... 172 00:07:56,623 --> 00:07:59,343 that first layer, where... 173 00:08:00,063 --> 00:08:01,023 Together all day... 174 00:08:01,033 --> 00:08:03,263 But going any deeper than that... 175 00:08:03,713 --> 00:08:05,187 there's almost none of that. 176 00:08:06,833 --> 00:08:08,663 So you feel empty, 177 00:08:08,753 --> 00:08:10,633 like you've failed, and bored. 178 00:08:12,433 --> 00:08:15,802 Being in a relationship is still about one person and another... 179 00:08:17,367 --> 00:08:19,597 Not just the form it takes, 180 00:08:19,807 --> 00:08:21,807 or chasing that form for its own sake. 181 00:08:24,157 --> 00:08:26,667 You can't get what you want... 182 00:08:28,687 --> 00:08:31,424 You can have the form of a relationship with anyone. 183 00:08:31,530 --> 00:08:33,123 But... 184 00:08:33,913 --> 00:08:39,543 that connection between two people... you can't have it with just anyone. 185 00:08:42,900 --> 00:08:44,058 It's a little hot now. 186 00:08:44,740 --> 00:08:45,860 Mm. 187 00:08:46,267 --> 00:08:47,357 Right. 188 00:08:48,357 --> 00:08:49,557 Mm. Ah. 189 00:08:50,733 --> 00:08:51,483 Mm. 190 00:08:52,423 --> 00:08:53,173 Wow. 191 00:08:53,233 --> 00:08:53,983 Mm. 192 00:08:54,923 --> 00:08:58,273 When you breathe on my neck like that, 193 00:08:58,283 --> 00:09:00,573 it makes me warm. 194 00:09:02,333 --> 00:09:03,803 Your temperature's higher. 195 00:09:03,813 --> 00:09:04,823 You're warmer than me. 196 00:09:04,833 --> 00:09:06,193 Mm. Right? 197 00:09:06,233 --> 00:09:06,523 Mm. 198 00:09:06,533 --> 00:09:08,633 I guess my temperature now is... 199 00:09:11,283 --> 00:09:12,033 More or less. 200 00:09:13,633 --> 00:09:14,383 Asleep? 201 00:09:14,823 --> 00:09:15,573 No. 202 00:09:16,200 --> 00:09:17,358 Right now, it feels... 203 00:09:19,667 --> 00:09:21,290 Hey, why aren't you saying anything? 204 00:09:21,300 --> 00:09:23,195 Mm. So we're not talking now, right? 205 00:09:31,167 --> 00:09:43,357 The train's coming. 206 00:09:43,607 --> 00:09:44,357 Mm. 207 00:09:44,733 --> 00:09:46,643 My ride's coming. 208 00:09:47,123 --> 00:09:49,383 Is it time to go? 209 00:09:52,533 --> 00:09:53,493 Are you leaving? 210 00:09:54,513 --> 00:09:55,263 Oh. 211 00:09:56,163 --> 00:09:57,058 And then leave... 212 00:09:59,833 --> 00:10:01,433 Mm. 213 00:10:05,123 --> 00:10:07,723 It's okay.