1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,140 Eh, si tukang merengek. 2 00:00:02,800 --> 00:00:04,590 Kamu marah kalau kupanggil begitu? 3 00:00:04,600 --> 00:00:05,700 Eh, tidak. 4 00:00:06,120 --> 00:00:06,613 Kenapa? 5 00:00:06,623 --> 00:00:07,886 Oh, aku sudah bukan begitu lagi. 6 00:00:07,973 --> 00:00:09,010 Sekarang kamu sudah tidak begitu? 7 00:00:09,020 --> 00:00:09,390 Ya. 8 00:00:09,400 --> 00:00:11,033 Kenapa sakit hati kalau orang lain yang bilang? 9 00:00:16,033 --> 00:00:18,673 Sedang memikirkan apa? 10 00:00:21,493 --> 00:00:22,704 Dialog yang tadi. 11 00:00:23,210 --> 00:00:24,490 Benar. Hm. 12 00:00:25,170 --> 00:00:25,920 Oke. 13 00:00:28,667 --> 00:00:33,417 Kamu tahu, seharusnya aku tidak seperti sekarang ini. 14 00:00:33,527 --> 00:00:37,147 Kamu tahu, seharusnya aku tidak seperti sekarang ini. 15 00:00:38,967 --> 00:00:41,387 Lalu mereka akan tertawa. 16 00:00:42,027 --> 00:00:43,993 Aku sedih sekali saat mengatakannya. 17 00:00:45,023 --> 00:00:47,093 Seharusnya aku tidak seperti sekarang... 18 00:00:49,833 --> 00:00:58,063 Mereka tidak mengerti aku. 19 00:00:59,867 --> 00:01:00,937 Ini bukan salahmu. 20 00:01:02,657 --> 00:01:04,341 Lalu mereka bilang aku tukang merengek. 21 00:01:05,533 --> 00:01:06,803 Cuma, “Huhuhu.” 22 00:01:07,173 --> 00:01:07,923 Hm. 23 00:01:08,300 --> 00:01:09,480 Karena kamu suka menangis. 24 00:01:10,250 --> 00:01:11,000 Oh. 25 00:01:11,400 --> 00:01:12,240 Aneh sekali. 26 00:01:13,533 --> 00:01:15,783 Lalu kuceritakan pada orang lain, mereka juga... 27 00:01:17,933 --> 00:01:20,293 Aku tak tahu mau cerita ke siapa. Mereka juga tak mau mendengar. 28 00:01:20,303 --> 00:01:24,853 Mereka cuma ingin tertawa, tak peduli hal lain. 29 00:01:26,667 --> 00:01:28,897 Tertawa itu tidak salah, tapi... 30 00:01:28,907 --> 00:01:29,657 Hm. 31 00:01:30,933 --> 00:01:31,683 Si tukang merengek. 32 00:01:32,463 --> 00:01:34,827 Saat mereka menyebutmu tukang merengek... 33 00:01:36,067 --> 00:01:36,817 Hm. 34 00:01:36,947 --> 00:01:38,307 Apa kamu sedih? 35 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:46,270 Hm. 36 00:01:48,390 --> 00:01:51,560 Kamu bisa cerita padaku. 37 00:01:53,667 --> 00:01:56,067 Oke, sekarang aku bisa mendengarkanmu. 38 00:01:57,307 --> 00:01:58,667 Ceritakanlah. 39 00:02:01,633 --> 00:02:10,283 Kamu masih mau pergi? 40 00:02:12,100 --> 00:02:12,850 Hm? 41 00:02:14,233 --> 00:02:14,983 Hm? 42 00:02:16,267 --> 00:02:17,017 Hm. 43 00:02:17,747 --> 00:02:21,277 Bagus, bagus. Oke. Hehe. 44 00:02:23,100 --> 00:02:26,340 Kamu merasa aku memaksamu untuk tetap tinggal? 45 00:02:27,860 --> 00:02:29,727 Hm. Kalau begitu, baiklah. 46 00:02:31,257 --> 00:02:33,307 Aku khawatir kamu tinggal... 47 00:02:34,027 --> 00:02:38,187 Karena aku memaksamu. 48 00:02:41,467 --> 00:02:42,217 Haha. 49 00:02:42,333 --> 00:02:44,553 Aku tahu mereka menggambarkanmu sebagai orang yang menakutkan. 50 00:02:44,573 --> 00:02:46,123 Aku tahu kamu sebenarnya tidak begitu. 51 00:02:46,133 --> 00:02:46,883 Hm. 52 00:02:47,800 --> 00:02:49,695 Lalu kenapa kamu bilang tidak pergi? 53 00:02:50,967 --> 00:02:51,717 Hujan. 54 00:02:52,247 --> 00:02:52,997 Hm. 55 00:02:54,200 --> 00:02:55,430 Bisa peluk aku? 56 00:02:58,433 --> 00:02:59,960 Bisa, tapi agak panas. 57 00:03:00,633 --> 00:03:03,233 Aku bisa menyalakan AC. 58 00:03:04,967 --> 00:03:06,861 Tapi nanti terlalu dingin. Maksudku... 59 00:03:06,987 --> 00:03:08,327 Jadi, bisa peluk aku? 60 00:03:09,767 --> 00:03:10,517 Bisa. 61 00:03:11,317 --> 00:03:13,583 Lalu kenapa masih banyak alasan? 62 00:03:14,500 --> 00:03:17,100 Karena sekarang perasaanmu rumit. 63 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:21,130 Atau bagaimana? 64 00:03:22,690 --> 00:03:23,990 Kamu benar-benar bisa... 65 00:03:26,820 --> 00:03:28,113 Bisa dicoba. Bisa dicoba. 66 00:03:28,353 --> 00:03:29,623 Kalau begitu, coba. 67 00:03:32,600 --> 00:03:34,790 Aku ingin menyandarkan kepala di tanganmu. 68 00:03:38,360 --> 00:03:39,518 Naik sedikit lagi. 69 00:03:41,557 --> 00:03:42,557 Kamu tertawa. 70 00:03:43,347 --> 00:03:45,357 Kamu seperti ulat kecil yang merayap. 71 00:03:45,367 --> 00:03:49,717 Hahaha, aku sampai ngakak. 72 00:03:49,837 --> 00:03:51,897 Kamu seperti ulat kecil. 73 00:03:52,537 --> 00:03:55,207 Lalu merayap lagi. 74 00:03:55,967 --> 00:03:56,690 Hm. 75 00:03:56,700 --> 00:03:58,110 Lalu taruh tanganmu di sini. 76 00:03:59,067 --> 00:03:59,817 Hm. 77 00:04:00,033 --> 00:04:00,723 Di mana? 78 00:04:00,733 --> 00:04:01,483 Di sini. 79 00:04:01,693 --> 00:04:03,483 Kamu belum pernah memeluk orang? 80 00:04:03,773 --> 00:04:04,593 Oh, oke. 81 00:04:08,233 --> 00:04:10,643 Kamu tertawa? Kamu tertawa lagi. 82 00:04:12,700 --> 00:04:15,020 Ah... apa yang kamu tertawakan? 83 00:04:15,267 --> 00:04:16,898 Tertawa itu meredakan tegang. 84 00:04:17,057 --> 00:04:18,107 Kenapa kamu tegang? 85 00:04:18,533 --> 00:04:19,090 Apa? 86 00:04:19,100 --> 00:04:21,240 Eh, si tukang merengek. 87 00:04:21,900 --> 00:04:23,690 Kamu marah kalau kupanggil begitu? 88 00:04:23,700 --> 00:04:24,800 Eh, tidak. 89 00:04:25,220 --> 00:04:25,713 Kenapa? 90 00:04:25,723 --> 00:04:26,986 Oh, aku sudah bukan begitu lagi. 91 00:04:27,073 --> 00:04:28,110 Sekarang kamu sudah tidak begitu? 92 00:04:28,120 --> 00:04:28,490 Ya. 93 00:04:28,500 --> 00:04:30,120 Kenapa sakit hati kalau orang lain yang bilang? 94 00:04:30,130 --> 00:04:30,857 Apa? 95 00:04:30,867 --> 00:04:31,617 Apa? 96 00:04:32,087 --> 00:04:32,980 Karena... 97 00:04:33,267 --> 00:04:34,657 Karena itu orang lain. 98 00:04:34,667 --> 00:04:35,707 Kalau sekarang? 99 00:04:36,300 --> 00:04:37,050 Sekarang kamu yang bilang. 100 00:04:37,060 --> 00:04:38,907 Sekarang kamu bukan tukang merengek lagi, ya? 101 00:04:38,917 --> 00:04:40,237 Oh. Hahaha. 102 00:04:41,647 --> 00:04:42,397 Ah. 103 00:04:43,300 --> 00:04:44,090 Eh, benar. 104 00:04:44,680 --> 00:04:45,430 Baguslah. 105 00:04:46,690 --> 00:04:47,440 Hahaha. 106 00:04:47,867 --> 00:04:48,647 Sedang apa? 107 00:04:48,657 --> 00:04:49,397 Kamu sedang apa? 108 00:04:49,407 --> 00:04:51,873 Aku melihat apakah kamu akan mulai merengek. 109 00:04:51,883 --> 00:04:57,410 Menaruh jari di daguku tak akan mengubahku jadi monster apa pun. 110 00:04:57,590 --> 00:04:59,660 Tapi leherku jadi agak tidak nyaman. 111 00:04:59,670 --> 00:05:00,420 Oke. 112 00:05:02,067 --> 00:05:04,677 Hei, kamu kepanasan? 113 00:05:05,397 --> 00:05:06,147 Sedikit. 114 00:05:06,887 --> 00:05:08,527 Kok aku tidak merasa panas? 115 00:05:10,533 --> 00:05:11,990 Lalu akhirnya kamu bagaimana? 116 00:05:12,000 --> 00:05:15,100 Pada akhirnya kamu bisa berbuat apa? 117 00:05:16,900 --> 00:05:17,650 Hm? 118 00:05:18,833 --> 00:05:20,463 Lalu waktu itu aku juga bermimpi. 119 00:05:20,473 --> 00:05:21,793 Aku bermimpi tentang Jiating. 120 00:05:22,767 --> 00:05:23,517 Lalu? 121 00:05:25,200 --> 00:05:27,420 Aku tahu Jiating memahami aku. 122 00:05:27,630 --> 00:05:27,857 Hm. 123 00:05:27,867 --> 00:05:30,890 Kami ada di tempat semacam tempat bermain anak... 124 00:05:30,900 --> 00:05:31,657 Hm. 125 00:05:31,667 --> 00:05:34,990 Semacam rumah gelembung warna-warni, dengan banyak bola kecil. 126 00:05:35,000 --> 00:05:35,557 Hm-hm. 127 00:05:35,567 --> 00:05:36,623 Kami berdua duduk di sana. 128 00:05:36,633 --> 00:05:37,343 Hm-hm. 129 00:05:37,353 --> 00:05:40,157 Ya, lalu... aku bilang... 130 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:42,530 Sebenarnya, kamu tahu... 131 00:05:42,540 --> 00:05:42,823 Hm. 132 00:05:42,833 --> 00:05:44,518 Seharusnya aku tidak seperti sekarang ini. 133 00:05:44,543 --> 00:05:45,293 Hm. 134 00:05:45,953 --> 00:05:47,111 Aku sedang minta tolong. 135 00:05:48,700 --> 00:05:50,470 Bagaimana perasaanmu? 136 00:05:52,333 --> 00:05:57,323 Tapi saat itu tak ada yang menolongku, lalu... 137 00:05:57,333 --> 00:06:00,533 Tak ada yang memanggilku tukang merengek. Aneh sekali. 138 00:06:01,823 --> 00:06:04,192 Jadi, kamu tak melalui fase merengek itu. 139 00:06:04,223 --> 00:06:12,493 Mungkin orang mengira ia tak akan menangis, pasti cukup kuat. 140 00:06:14,753 --> 00:06:15,503 Hm. 141 00:06:16,867 --> 00:06:19,867 Nyaman sekali. Begini nyaman sekali. 142 00:06:21,200 --> 00:06:22,960 Kamu masih merasa panas? 143 00:06:24,830 --> 00:06:25,580 Hm. 144 00:06:26,643 --> 00:06:28,883 Sekarang agak hangat. 145 00:06:29,523 --> 00:06:30,223 Kurang lebih pas. 146 00:06:30,233 --> 00:06:31,153 Kalau begitu, oke. 147 00:06:31,673 --> 00:06:32,703 Bukan panas yang... 148 00:06:33,353 --> 00:06:34,774 Bikin gerah itu. 149 00:06:36,200 --> 00:06:37,760 Apa kamu pernah merasa takut? 150 00:06:39,990 --> 00:06:42,570 Hm. Takut tentang apa? 151 00:06:42,880 --> 00:06:46,300 Hm. Kematian. 152 00:06:49,330 --> 00:06:51,143 Hubungan intim. 153 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:53,580 Teman. 154 00:06:55,330 --> 00:06:57,893 Masyarakat ini. 155 00:06:58,593 --> 00:07:02,190 Segalanya yang ada sekarang. 156 00:07:02,200 --> 00:07:05,570 Semua hal yang sedang terjadi. 157 00:07:09,360 --> 00:07:11,047 Apa kamu merasa takut? 158 00:07:14,700 --> 00:07:15,450 Iya. 159 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:17,750 Hm. 160 00:07:23,200 --> 00:07:24,590 Waktu kecil, keluargaku... 161 00:07:25,360 --> 00:07:26,670 Pernah meninggalkanku. Lalu... 162 00:07:29,467 --> 00:07:32,227 Jadi, dalam hubungan intim aku cenderung takut pada... 163 00:07:32,667 --> 00:07:33,417 Hm. 164 00:07:36,397 --> 00:07:38,134 Hal-hal yang tidak stabil dan tidak pasti. 165 00:07:38,560 --> 00:07:40,244 Tiba-tiba terasa jauh dariku. 166 00:07:41,433 --> 00:07:44,433 Tapi saat terlalu... 167 00:07:45,700 --> 00:07:47,753 Saat terlalu dekat, rasanya... 168 00:07:48,420 --> 00:07:49,783 Maksudku... 169 00:07:50,683 --> 00:07:52,473 Sulit untuk lebih dari itu... 170 00:07:52,603 --> 00:07:53,353 Hanya... 171 00:07:54,433 --> 00:07:55,723 Sekadar... 172 00:07:56,623 --> 00:07:59,343 Lapisan pertama, yang... 173 00:08:00,063 --> 00:08:01,023 Lengket seharian... 174 00:08:01,033 --> 00:08:03,263 Tapi untuk masuk lebih dalam... 175 00:08:03,713 --> 00:08:05,187 Hampir tidak pernah. 176 00:08:06,833 --> 00:08:08,663 Jadi, itu membuatmu merasa hampa. 177 00:08:08,753 --> 00:08:10,633 Merasa gagal dan bosan. 178 00:08:12,433 --> 00:08:15,802 Pacaran itu, pada dasarnya, soal orang dengan orang... 179 00:08:17,367 --> 00:08:19,597 Bukan bentuk hubungannya itu. 180 00:08:19,807 --> 00:08:21,807 Atau sekadar mengejar bentuk itu. 181 00:08:24,157 --> 00:08:26,667 Tak dapat... tak dapat yang kamu inginkan... 182 00:08:28,687 --> 00:08:31,424 Bentuk hubungan itu bisa dijalani dengan siapa saja. 183 00:08:31,530 --> 00:08:33,123 Tapi... 184 00:08:33,913 --> 00:08:39,543 Hubungan antarmanusia bukan dengan sembarang orang. 185 00:08:42,900 --> 00:08:44,058 Sekarang agak panas. 186 00:08:44,740 --> 00:08:45,860 Hm. 187 00:08:46,267 --> 00:08:47,357 Iya. 188 00:08:48,357 --> 00:08:49,557 Hm. Ah. 189 00:08:50,733 --> 00:08:51,483 Hm. 190 00:08:52,423 --> 00:08:53,173 Wow. 191 00:08:53,233 --> 00:08:53,983 Hm. 192 00:08:54,923 --> 00:08:58,273 Saat napasmu mengenai leherku begitu, 193 00:08:58,283 --> 00:09:00,573 Rasanya jadi hangat. 194 00:09:02,333 --> 00:09:03,803 Suhu tubuhmu lebih tinggi. 195 00:09:03,813 --> 00:09:04,823 Kamu lebih hangat dariku. 196 00:09:04,833 --> 00:09:06,193 Hm. Benar, kan? 197 00:09:06,233 --> 00:09:06,523 Hm. 198 00:09:06,533 --> 00:09:08,633 Sepertinya suhu tubuhku sekarang... 199 00:09:11,283 --> 00:09:12,033 Kurang lebih begitu. 200 00:09:13,633 --> 00:09:14,383 Tertidur? 201 00:09:14,823 --> 00:09:15,573 Tidak. 202 00:09:16,200 --> 00:09:17,358 Sekarang rasanya... 203 00:09:19,667 --> 00:09:21,290 Hei, kenapa tidak bicara? 204 00:09:21,300 --> 00:09:23,195 Hm. Jadi, sekarang kita diam saja, ya? 205 00:09:31,167 --> 00:09:43,357 Keretanya datang. 206 00:09:43,607 --> 00:09:44,357 Hm. 207 00:09:44,733 --> 00:09:46,643 Mobil yang menjemputku akan datang. 208 00:09:47,123 --> 00:09:49,383 Sudah waktunya pergi? 209 00:09:52,533 --> 00:09:53,493 Kamu mau pergi? 210 00:09:54,513 --> 00:09:55,263 Oh. 211 00:09:56,163 --> 00:09:57,058 Lalu pergi... 212 00:09:59,833 --> 00:10:01,433 Hm. 213 00:10:05,123 --> 00:10:07,723 Tidak apa-apa.