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Who are you?

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Mm. Okay.

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Told me to lie on the bed.

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Shaking all over.

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Say it.

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Wake up.

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Wake up. Let the water out.

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Wake up. Wake up.

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I'm fine. I'm okay.

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Out on the street, one place was lit up.

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I ran toward it.

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You thought...

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I thought this would save you.

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But I didn't know you were...

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It's like a...

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Like a fish tank.

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You're swimming in there.

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I can't swim.

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Can't swim.

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So he...

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Could you teach me?

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[Indistinct whispering]

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You know what I want?

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Help me.

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Thank you.

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To repay you.

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Mm.

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What are you thanking me for?

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What are you thanking me for?

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Want to come over?

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No, no.

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You just seemed upset.

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I could show you around.

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Oh.

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Or Yanjiao. Up to you.

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I'm afraid to go.

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Why?

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I'm afraid to go.

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Maybe later.

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You don't usually drink, do you?

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Diluted whisky.

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You added water?

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Yes.

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It's all melted now.

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Thank you.

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Go get some ice, then pour the drinks.

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I'll lie on your lap.

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Okay.

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I haven't brought the drinks,
and you're already lying down.

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Ha! All right.

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Grown-ups need to play too.

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But we didn't mean playing games.

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Not video games or arcades.

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Not sightseeing together either.

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Just running around the neighborhood.

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That was my happiest time.

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The happiest I'd ever been.

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I want to go back to then.

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I remember it so clearly.

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We were playing hide-and-seek.

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We were running around,

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and I hid in an apartment building,

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right behind the entrance door.

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I couldn't stop panting.

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Anyone could have found me.

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It was so silly.

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You wanted them to find you?

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No. I couldn't stop panting.

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Oh, right.

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There was a well. A really deep well.

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We dropped stones and timed the splash
to work out how deep it was.

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It felt like something mysterious was down there.

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Me too.

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Like an underground cave.

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When I was little...

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This is a little shop.

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I used to play there all the time.

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Nobody at home looked after me.

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The old lady there was so kind.

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She gave me snacks and toys.

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And later...

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I lived here in primary school.

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Seven or eight years later,

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I used to skip high school.

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One day I skipped class and went back.

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To see her.

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I bought a few things.

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I asked, "Do you remember me?"

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She thought, but couldn't remember.

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Then suddenly: "You're Zhuangzhuang!"

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She recognized me.

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I was so moved.

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And she wouldn't take my money.

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I should have paid first.

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But when I opened the door,

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it was just like seven or eight years ago.

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Even she looked exactly the same.

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I could barely hold it together.

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After that, I was afraid to see her.

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I thought she'd give me things again.

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Love comes through at other moments.

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It was there in that moment too.

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But sex and love are separate,

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for me.

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I often wonder why I can't love.

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Nobody...

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Nobody taught us how to love.

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Can it be taught?

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It takes steady perseverance.

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Never abandoning, never giving up. And...

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Feeling secure.

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You have to feel secure to love someone.

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That's so heavy.

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But many people don't feel secure.

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They can only protect themselves.

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We never took the proper mountain trail.

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We climbed down over these rocks,

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then up the cliff opposite.

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Mm.

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Now...

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In high school, I'd skip class to watch sunsets here.

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Oh, beautiful.

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I watched the sunset here every day.

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Beautiful.

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A time we can't return to.

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But you can't live there forever.

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You can't keep looking back.

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I was wrong.

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I was wrong. I was wrong.

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I was wrong.

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I was wrong.

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You're here.

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I forgive you.

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Let's go. Come on.

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It's time to go fishing.

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Such a lovely day.

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Set up the tent.

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Get in the inflatable boat.

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Then Barbie accidentally drowned.

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Give me a chance.

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Give me a chance.

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Turn on the light.

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You were drunk that day.

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That's not what happened.

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Barbie was on the boat too.

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But later she was gone.

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It's him.

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Why won't he come over?

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I hate him! I hate him!

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Do you understand?

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I hate him!

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I'm not what you need.

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You're all I have.

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Why say this now?

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Get out!

156
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Get out.

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Go.

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Hmph.

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Is this okay?

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I don't want this.

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I see the slightest reluctance in your eyes.

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No.

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How can I trust you?

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I can't trust anyone anymore.

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How can I trust you?

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We can keep our distance.

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Do you understand?

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Once the cup is empty, throw it away.

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I have nothing more to give you.

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What's the point?

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Please, just go.

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Go. Don't do this.

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At least I still have a cat.

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But one day,

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it went missing.

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Where do I go now?

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The cartoon's over.

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The clock stopped.

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It doesn't matter who's right anymore.

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I lost my shoes.

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I don't fucking believe you anymore.

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I hate you.

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You thought...

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I thought this would save you.

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Let's end this.

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Forget it.

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You're a failure.

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That's what you want me to say?

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You failed. Such a failure.

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You're nothing.

191
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You're nothing. Everything you do is pointless.

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Baby.

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I don't care. I don't care.

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A failure, baby.

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I don't care.

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Are you afraid of ghosts?

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Are you afraid of ghosts?

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This is terrible.

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No idea where to begin.

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He wants me to slow down.

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We...

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Slowly.

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Turn on the light.

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Then I could see clearly.

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Maybe you should stop.

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It's gone.

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It's gone.

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Wrong format.

209
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When the hallucination appeared in the drawer,

210
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I happened to be asleep.

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Please, hurry up.

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You're too slow.

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Wrong format.

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I don't know what to do.

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Like a fish tank.

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You're swimming in there.

217
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I'm swimming in there.

218
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I'm killing fish in there.

219
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You know...

220
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You're swimming in there.

221
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You know I'm in there.
So let the water out!

222
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You know I'm in there.
Let the water out! Let it out!

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Wake up!

224
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Wake up!

225
00:11:03,700 --> 00:11:07,800
I can't stand your hypocrisy.
There you are, bouncing around.

226
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What are you talking about?

227
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It's suddenly so cold.

228
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You don't understand.

229
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It feels like my heart is being torn apart.

230
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My heart, torn apart.

231
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Communication is where evil begins.

232
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How many worlds fit inside one mind?

233
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You can paint one world,
then jump into another.

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Paint one, then go to another.

235
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You must never lie.

236
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Tell me.

237
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What does it mean to create?

238
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Do you know you're lying?

239
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Are you done yet?

240
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Are you done yet?

241
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You should step aside.

242
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Give him a chance to live.

243
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Be careful.

244
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Listen. Nobody's fighting you.

245
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Can't swim.

246
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Mm.

247
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Can't swim.

248
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Let me go down.

249
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I've changed my mind.

250
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Even hell would be fine.

251
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Let it all disappear. Disappear.

252
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How can it end like this?

253
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How can it end like this?

254
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What else do you want?

255
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Tell me. I'll give it to you.

256
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You can't keep giving it to him.

257
00:13:01,200 --> 00:13:03,267
I can write this down.

258
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Mm.

259
00:13:03,600 --> 00:13:05,000
There is no "if."

260
00:13:06,133 --> 00:13:07,033
There is no "if."

261
00:13:07,033 --> 00:13:09,300
I haven't said what I really want to say.

262
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It's because I'm keeping a diary.

263
00:13:11,500 --> 00:13:12,133
Huh?

264
00:13:12,467 --> 00:13:14,400
Keeping a diary... Yes.

265
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It's a place to put some of your feelings.

266
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So cold.

267
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Give me a blanket.

268
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So cold. So cold.

269
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Do you know?

270
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Do you know?

271
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People who freeze to death...
Did you know they undress before they die?

272
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They feel hot.

273
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Mm. They feel so hot.

274
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What are you thinking?

275
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I find it amazing.

276
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But, but...

277
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I want to understand it, but I can't.
So I give up.

278
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You thought...

279
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I thought this would save you.

280
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Say it. Wake up.

281
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Wake up. Let the water out.

282
00:14:16,267 --> 00:14:18,333
Wake up. Wake up.

283
00:14:18,333 --> 00:14:19,700
Who are you?

284
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Mm. Okay.

285
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Told me to lie on the bed.

286
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Shaking all over.

287
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I don't know if I'm awake or asleep.

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I look up.

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Like a fish tank.

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Then why don't you let the water out?

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I'm swimming in there too.