No One Taught Us How to Love

I often wonder,

Why can't I love you?

No one taught us how to love.

Can it be taught?

Nothing I say gets through.

this isn't love,

understand?

This isn't love,

this is,

I can't explain it, but

it falls short of the love I imagined by

a hundred times.

Do you understand?

I mean.

I understand,

you're not listening to me at all.

How many times do I have to tell you?

We've rehearsed so many times.

you can't get past something so simple?

You just

don't feel it.

You always say okay,

I know, I understand,

but you don't believe me.

Do you feel fear?

Hmm, fear of what?

Hmm, death.

Intimate relationships

Friends

Society.

Everything now,

everything that's happening now.

Do you feel fear?

Yes.

Hmm

When I was a child, my family

abandoned me, and then

So in relationships, I fear

Hmm.

instability and uncertainty—

someone suddenly pulling away.

Love takes sustained commitment.

Not abandoning each other,

not giving up.

And a sense of security,

To love someone, you need to feel secure.

Within yourself.

Without security, we can only protect ourselves.

But when we get too close, I feel

like

there's nowhere further to go.

It's

all on the surface,

just the first layer.

You know—

spending every day together,

talking about all sorts of

positive things,

and random things.

Oh.

Going deeper than that,

almost never happens.

So that makes you feel very empty,

very defeated, very bored.

Dating is actually about people,

not the shape of a relationship.

Not just chasing that shape.

You could have that with anyone.

But

But a real connection can't happen with just anyone.

Love flows at other times.

So comfortable, this is so comfortable.

Do you still feel hot?

Hmm,

Now it feels warm,

just enough.

Alright then.

Not

uncomfortably hot.